Shared by Nadia Siswanto
What have you been learning lately?
I’ve been going through a desert season of my life, feeling discouraged and low on hope. One recent evening, the events of the day came rushing back to my memory and I had a sudden realization. Earlier that day, I had been surrounded by women friends from my community group and we had an amazing time, breaking bread, laughing and crying together. For many years, I had prayed for a solid community of Christian women friends in LA and it wasn’t until that moment that I realized that God had been faithful. I never expected that these women would be the answer to my prayers nor did I expect they would share my love for yummy food!
I’ve been seeing this pattern in my life, over and over: It seems that every good gift that I’ve received from God – usually in the form of significant people being brought into my life — has involved a long wait and the cultivation of patience. During the waiting period, I tend to ask God, Why does it have to take this long? Are You going to answer my prayer? In the thick of it when things get really hard, I start to lose hope that God may not answer my prayer after all. But time and time again, God would answer my prayer unexpectedly and His timing was always perfect. Furthermore, God’s gift has always been better than what I prayed for. When these people come into my life, I eventually realize and think to myself, “Wow, this is what I’ve been waiting for!
I believe God is teaching me patience, and that He’ll probably continue to do that for the rest of my life. When I think back to the past, I sense God saying, Look Nadia, I did that for you. Remember that I’m faithful and that I’m taking care of you. With my growing patience, I’m learning to be grateful for God’s gifts, to trust Him, and to remind myself of God’s faithfulness in the past so that I can have hope for the future and live in the present.
Nadia Siswanto is a psychotherapist in private practice with Cissy Brady-Rogers & Associates and at Monte Nido, a residential treatment center for eating disorders. She was born in Indonesia and immigrated with her family to the US when she was 3 months old. She is passionate about helping girls and women find healing and discover and embrace their authentic whole selves. Nadia can be contacted by email at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Interviewed by Joy Wong