What have you been learning lately?

Lately I’ve been learning that I can start with a godly goal – church planting, ministering to others, doing all sorts of things — but if I lose focus of God, then it becomes driven by me, not by God.  In my human condition, I have a tendency to pervert my goals to become a glorified thing for myself. I’ve also been learning that not everything God wants us to do is going to flourish.  Sometimes through that process, He wants us to be broken, and perhaps He’s teaching us that He’s the one doing it, not us.  It’s a blessing that God has that kind of interest in our lives.

For me, a red flag is control, and I have to continually ask myself, How much of this am I controlling?  If I’m controlling it, then obviously whatever I’m doing is about me.  When I speak about this, I always say, “How much of your life is really in control?  Zero. We can’t even stop ourselves from going to the bathroom if we wanted to. Yet we live with this illusion that we’re in total control.”  If it’s really something God-willed, we have the control to submit and obey, but it’s God who opens doors and closes them, and if we step back, sincerely pray “not my will but Your will be done” and allow Him to do it, God will do it.

Christy Hyun is the pastor’s wife at Gospel Mission Project Church in Santa Clarita, CA, a mom of four kids, and a licensed marriage-family therapist in private practice.  Born in Korea and raised in southern California, she received her BA at Boston University and attended Fuller Theological Seminary and Western Seminary.  To contact Christy, please send your inquiry to aawolsisters@gmail.com.

Interviewed by Joy Wong